Posted on 09 Oct 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: The Moment I Knew
いまわなんじですか？ 10:56 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 30/1,000
I thought I would cheer random people who read my blog entries.
So here we go!
Embarrassing Moments of RasuKA's life pt. 01
Time: Late at night before bedtime
Where: In my apartment
Don't you hate it when you leave something semi-important only to remember where you left it at the most inconvenient time?
Well this all started as I was already dressed in my super embarrassing, strange, and UN-matched sleeping wear.
Since it was VERY COLD I was wear my long sleeved short cotton pink gown. It has weird green leaves on it, and other strange flowers on it.
Since it was short I wore this thick flannel dark green & blue plaid long pajama pants. I was WARM!
I think I was brushing my teeth brush brush brush...
Oh! I cannot find my iPhone! Where did my iPhone go???
It's in the van!!!!
Looking down at my clothes I thought to myself...
I am on the fifth floor of the apartment...
The cell-phone is in the van... down at the basement...
... NAW!!! Surely NOBODY would be out this late!!!
So with confidence I with my lovely and kind cousin marched into the elevator. Mind you, she was smart, she was still wearing her Day clothes.
We went into the Elevator, pressed the B1 button.
We got down to the basement and I opened the van.
I took my iPhone, in-hand-oh-so-happy!
My cousin and I head back into the elevator.
We punch in 5.
And when the elevator hit Floor one, a good-looking couple came in...
I WAS HORRIFIED!
When the man came in his face was SHOCKED!
As if I had two heads or something....
Well... my sleeping attire was pretty.... Ugly..
It wasn't inappropriate or showy it was just plain.. FASHION RISK!
Plus in Taiwan you don't see nobody walking around in their sleep wear like you do here in the USA.
And the girl with him I don't remember her reaction, but I bet you it was the same!
And guess what?! They had to get off at floor 4... not 2, not 3... but sadly the long long 4...
It was SO AWKWARD!
COME TO MY RESCUE MY COUSIN!
She basically blocked me and hid me as best as she could in the corner of the elevator...
Good thing she's 5"10!
It was the longest and most embarrassing elevator ride for me...
Moral of this life experience: Kids... NEVER go out late at night in your sleepwear thinking NOBODY would come home this LATE. Save yourself... Ha ha... meh...
22: Crate Myrtles swaying to the pace of the breeze.
23: The heart-to-heart connection with my First Love.
24: The consuming flames of passion I see in the few of my generation.
25: My mission for this Winter.
26: Friends you so dearly love, who do not even know of your existence.
27: Being able to reach out to those in-need by using your past hurts.
28: Leading hand-in-hand that friend to the Ultimate Friend.
29: Tears that tell a million stories.
30: Tears that shed a hundred feelings.
Posted on 01 Oct 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: This is my Father's World [Classical Guitar Instrumental]
いまわなんじですか？ 10:22 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 21/1,000
From October to November will be months of training, and arming myself with love, patience, kindness, a servant's heart, understanding, lowliness, meekness, & MORE LOVE!
All the pieces on the chess board is set.... On my side that is.
He has set all the pieces in place on my side, now He has to set the pieces on the other side.
I am so scared right now, but I know He will prevail.
He holds the whole world in His hands.
He works mighty things even in places nobody ever thinks of.
He wants us to go boldly before Him and talk to Him.
Knock and it shall be opened unto you.
Ask and you shall Recieve.
Please make Your will MY will... And Your desires MY desires.
I want to go to TW this month and deliver to a family the greatest Christmas gift of all times.
Please change their course from Mammoth to Taiwan.
Please guide me in love and kindness to share the true meaning of Christmas with that beautiful soul you have placed as a burden on my heart.
I will walk in the footsteps of Your Son.
No matter what I have to say, I want him to know that he is NOT alone. I am here, I was here months ago.. Barely knowing him I cried for him. Never spoken to him I felt that he has the same hurt I had 4 years ago.
This is Your will. You have shown me how to hurt for him so you could train me to lead him to Jesus.
Thank you for loving him. He is beautiful in your sight. I will do everything I can and leave the rest to you. Save Him Abba!
For he is alone! No one hears his cries! He shouts out in anguish and everybody turns away... A lone he sits... Deep in thought.. "Does anyone really care?"
I do. I do. I do from the first time He put you in my heart.
I love you & I have something to share with you.
My love for you is nothing romantic, it's a better love.
It's the love of sharing the truth. I will guide you to freedom.
Then I will lead you to the ONE who can set you free.
Be free my friend.
17. A heart that hurts for somebody I have not yet met.
18. A heart the yearns for truth to be heard.
19. The freedom of unshackling a friend from sin.
20. The Savior & King born on Christmas day.
21. Waiting on my Abba to deliver the Lost into my hand so I can hold them in my arms and love them with every fiber God has given me.
Posted on 27 Sep 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: The chirping of birds
いまわなんじですか？ 9:18 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 16/1,000
Even though I do not know you, I feel that you are lonely.
No words can express why I feel this way.
I know you will never read this entry but I want to remind myself of the Mercy of God.
He loves you so much... That he gave this to me.
I hurt for you so much. It feels that you are going through the darkness & loneliness that I once endured.
You are hundreds of miles away from me, but God loves you so much.
It breaks my heart to know that God says, "He's hurting. Just like you did 4 years ago".
I want to tell you that you are NOT alone!
I have been in that darkness... It consumes you, there is no way out... You want your own life to just... cease.
Thump thump....Thump... Th....
That's how my heart felt.
I'm begging for you to fight for your life!
Please! You do not know how much you mean to your Creator!
Please... You don't have to be alone anymore!
I will pull you out of that dark pit. I will hold your hand and lead you to the ultimate friend!... I'm right here...
Please don't feel sad anymore... I think about you everyday and how much God has placed you on my heart. I am praying for you my friend. please don't go.... You're not alone.. I. Am. Here. With. You.
You just don't know it yet.
I have SO much to share with you... You're so far away...
We've only talked once but you know what?
My God is the God of Miracles!
He makes rain shower on the Just and Unjust!
He has mercy and grace on those who know Him, and those who don't know Him.
Hey... I was once in a very dark time in my life.
Yet He told me not to end it, more like He took my hand and dragged me to safety 4 years later.
Beloved Friend... If I had ended my life... Who would think about you daily? Who would want to minister?
I cannot bear the thought of you dying now... I can't.
Please hang on! I'm coming!
Luke 1:37 "For with God, Nothing shall be impossible"
Friend... I'm going to Taiwan this Winter, & by God's mercy, grace, and LOVE for you... I'll meet you there.. Face-To-Face.
I will share His love with you.
I will be that friend you needed.
I will lead you to THE ultimate friend.
Don't feel so sad anymore. You don't know me, but I am here.
I am supporting you.
See you this December! HANG IN THERE!!
HAVE NO FEAR! REBECCA IS HERE!
13. Crying and hurting for those you love, but don't know.
14. A Merciful God who is willing to use the broken for good.
15. God's Indirect way of showing mercy.
16. That God can change the heart... And provide.
Posted on 26 Sep 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: Treacherous
いまわなんじですか？ 10:59 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 12/1,000
There have been many people who I have crossed paths with.
But I must say that my sister is the best person on earth I have ever crossed paths with.
Oneesan... We have had fights, bites, and sheds of tears but you are the most treasured person on this earth that I have.
You are my best friend, you hurt me the least, you put yourself underneath me. To catch me when I fall.. To comfort me when I'm down. You put your arm around me when a good friend of mine hurt me unknowingly.
You give me the strength to press on. You love me no-matter how terrible I've been to you.
You would even meekly give your crush to me, if I ever really liked him.
You are my partner in crime!
You are the person with the shovel if I said, "Sister... I murdered my ex-boyfriend."
Wait.. that's not right!
You would be the one sending my boyfriend to the grave if he hurt me in anyway! WOW! I DON'T HAVE TO GET MY HANDS DIRTY!"
But I'm so glad that we're not murderers! <3
I love you so much! God gives me grace... And you are one of them.
You are a gift that I didn't deserve in the first place!
Thank you for encouraging me when I felt stupid, worthless, ugly, unloved, and despised.
You were able to point out secret lies and tell me that "These are the lies you are believing..."
If God didn't put you into my life.. I would have ended my life long time ago.
You are what keeps me alive on this earth!
You are God's cherished gift!
I do NOT deserve you, yet God was merciful enough to give you to me.
I know there are times... that I do not act perfect.
There are times I have to be alone to think things through.
Instead of going "What's her problem? What a big baby LOL!! Glad I'm a beautiful perfect lady!!!"
You think about all the things you could have done that hurt me.
When those times was just me hurting myself, and believing lies I tell myself.
Thanks thanks thanks!
I give you my blessings through your life, you future relationship, and I pray that God will give you a WONDERFUL marriage!
P.S: To my boyfriend: Break my heart and my sister will take you to the grave. You better think second before trying to hurt me in anyway.
10. A Gracious Gift of a Sister.
11. Sound of chicken plucking grass.
12. Beautiful Mercies from God that sing songs to me.
Posted on 15 Sep 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: Whipping of the fan
いまわなんじですか？ 5:27 [PM]
Journey of Joy: 9/1,000
Yesterday was a very impacting day. I never knew how well I could sit still and not realize that 45 minutes can pass by so fast!
It helps when the teacher is teaching a subject that you are passionate about.
I may blog about my experience yesterday and today another day.
Right now, I want to slow down and... Reflect on Joy.
It's not very hard to start naming off all the things that brings us joy and what can bring us joy.
When I am in a tough, sad, depressing, not-awesome situation, by my human nature the first thing I turn to is...
Does sulking bring joy?
Not at all.
Each time we sink into a pit of self-centerness it gives us 1% harder to name the things that does and can bring us joy.
So...始めましょう, let's being.
1.] Joy is very different than Happiness. (That's a very important key-point!)
2.] Joy can be found even in the tiniest things!
3.] Joy isn't temporarily as Happiness is.
4.] Joy springs from the deepest parts of the human heart, mind, soul, and spirit.
5.] Joy brings a smile on our face.
So how can I find joy when I'm going through family problems, relational problem, peopling making fun of me, etc. . .
One key-thought I always keep near my heart is.
"It could be worse".
Doesn't sound as appealing as you were hoping it would be huh?
Even though it doesn't have a magical twang twang to that phrase.
It has actually helped me out of my most depressing life rides.
How do I define the tiny Joys in my life?
It's not as hard as you think and it can be quiet SIMPLE!
Let's try doing something right now.
Let's bring the hidden Joy to surface so you can see it for yourself!
Sit still for a moment... And try to think of all the bad things that could have been.
Take a moment.
Next, think of how the could have been and compare it to reality. The Right Now.
The COULD BE
In 2008 my family had a car wreck which took away both my legs, and it took away my sister's left side of her face. Her jaw wasn't able to be repaired and I cannot walk anymore.
In 2008 my family had a car wreck and the wreck caused the front driver's seat to SMASH into my sister's face. She had to get surgery to place a titanium plate in a small section in her head, and she had to get arches to fix her jaw. I had whip-lash, and breathing problems because of the impact that 3500 Ram Truck caused.
Now here comes the JOY that springs from within me!
In 2008 my family and I survived a horrible rear-end impact from a 3500 Ram Truck. We are all breathing, and we live by God's love and mercy.
We thank God for allowing the jellies to be crushed and not us. We may have health issues, but it couldn't be better. We are truly happy from the bottom of our hearts, and we give eucharisteo to Him.
WOAH WOAH WOAH!!! WAAAAAAAAIT...
I thought this theme was JOY?!
Not.. Euu..char...steo-thingy! What is that anyway?!
Well... You see without Eucharisteo we can't truly obtain Joy.
Eucharisteo means "he gave thanks"
Basically it means giving thanks.
That's what Jesus did... Even at the cross He gave thanks.
He found joy...
"But that dude was a'suffering on the cross! How is that joy?! That's horrible!"
Jesus gave THANKS/Eucharisteo to His Father, He found joy because He knew after he paid our price FOR US... He could see us one day in Heaven.
He LOVED us, and Thanked God for allowing Him to suffer in our place.
If you are in a bad, tough, horrible, or sad situation.
Give.Thanks. . .
There is a lot to be thankful for!
It may even be while you're washing the dishes!!!
"I HAAAAAAAAAAAATE DISHES!!!"
Hey.. At least you have dishes to wash!
Do you know how many other starving-to-death children would GIVE just to have food so THEY could WASH the DISHES?
Hmmm... I'll let that sink in deeper for you.
Still having trouble on how to find joy?
Joy is everywhere, you just have to discover it.
4. Two legs to walk on.
5. Sun still shining.
6. Inspiring Lectures
7. Love from my sister
8. Paved pathway of my future.
9. Safety in His arms.