Posted on 27 Dec 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow
今はなんじですか？ 12:35 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 34/1,000
Ah... Hello long time no blog...
I have been soooooo busy busy during my Winter vacation.
People scheduling me to this event, to that event, to see these people, meet, greet, and eat eat eat with this person, that family, etc.
I feel like a make-up-less-celebrity.
Except I am not a celebrity! HAHAHAHA Neither do I want to be!
I may blog about all or.. 80% of my bought goods...
Let's say I bought a LOT of Kuroko no Basuke stuff.
I go crazy in an Anime store!
I also go crazy [ but not as much ] when it comes to pen shopping, sticker shopping, and stationary shopping!
I should probably go to bed.. It is already Saturday for me... It's 12AM something and tomorrow I am not sure if I am supposed to get up at 7AM again or not?
WUWAHH!!!! I WANT SLEEP!
Posted on 10 Dec 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: Baby Don't You Break My Heart Slow
今はなんじですか？ 7:28 [PM]
Journey of Joy: 34/1,000
Am I really enough? You know who I am do You not?
You do remember that I was the broken little girl who hated the world.
You do remember that I feel as if I am the weakest vessel...
I am but an imperfect girl with tears of confusions streaming down her face.
Are You sure You have use for me? What if I fail You? Break Your heart? Or worse... Run away from Your blessings given to me?
Sometimes I am so scared that I will tuck tails and run.
Where did my courage go? Where is my boldness?
From the start... I gave it away. I got rid of everything that meant relying on myself.
I found You. You were always there.. For me.
I threw away my courage, pride, and boldness.
I need not protect myself and build a wall of isolation and destitute.
Nobody in this world can protect me.
Not my parents, not my siblings, and not myself.
You are my protection.
I threw away what I had so You could enter into my life.
Sometimes I feel so scared knowing that You will show me the impossible.
Why do I tremble??
I think it is because You have entrusted a precious soul to me.
I do not protect it, yet I must not run away from it either.
You have nurtured & knitted that soul for a long time.
I guess I am just afraid that I may chicken out and not share an important message with that person.
What should I do?
Sometimes I am even scared to think... Should You even trust me with something so beautiful?
I do not know the future, I do not know what you are planning.
But I know You want to do good to and for me.
I thank you.
I do not deserve such an honoring role in life. But I gladly take the trophy with tears. I will gladly take the prize knowing and being the weakest person on earth.
I am nothing, I have nothing.
You are everything, You have everything.
I abide in You, and You in my heart.
Write my story this Winter.
I love you Abba.
I entrust my life, heart, and my future to you.
Take me. Take me, give me courage, strength.
BE my tower or boldness.
Be my pasture of peace.
Be my heart of compassion.
Let me share Your blossoming gift of love with this precious soul this Winter.
Take my hand, and lead my life.
31. The fear of holding an honoring role.
32. The love of an unconditional Lover.
33. This Winter
34. Beautiful Love stories that no human can ever write.
Posted on 09 Oct 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: The Moment I Knew
いまわなんじですか？ 10:56 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 30/1,000
I thought I would cheer random people who read my blog entries.
So here we go!
Embarrassing Moments of RasuKA's life pt. 01
Time: Late at night before bedtime
Where: In my apartment
Don't you hate it when you leave something semi-important only to remember where you left it at the most inconvenient time?
Well this all started as I was already dressed in my super embarrassing, strange, and UN-matched sleeping wear.
Since it was VERY COLD I was wear my long sleeved short cotton pink gown. It has weird green leaves on it, and other strange flowers on it.
Since it was short I wore this thick flannel dark green & blue plaid long pajama pants. I was WARM!
I think I was brushing my teeth brush brush brush...
Oh! I cannot find my iPhone! Where did my iPhone go???
It's in the van!!!!
Looking down at my clothes I thought to myself...
I am on the fifth floor of the apartment...
The cell-phone is in the van... down at the basement...
... NAW!!! Surely NOBODY would be out this late!!!
So with confidence I with my lovely and kind cousin marched into the elevator. Mind you, she was smart, she was still wearing her Day clothes.
We went into the Elevator, pressed the B1 button.
We got down to the basement and I opened the van.
I took my iPhone, in-hand-oh-so-happy!
My cousin and I head back into the elevator.
We punch in 5.
And when the elevator hit Floor one, a good-looking couple came in...
I WAS HORRIFIED!
When the man came in his face was SHOCKED!
As if I had two heads or something....
Well... my sleeping attire was pretty.... Ugly..
It wasn't inappropriate or showy it was just plain.. FASHION RISK!
Plus in Taiwan you don't see nobody walking around in their sleep wear like you do here in the USA.
And the girl with him I don't remember her reaction, but I bet you it was the same!
And guess what?! They had to get off at floor 4... not 2, not 3... but sadly the long long 4...
It was SO AWKWARD!
COME TO MY RESCUE MY COUSIN!
She basically blocked me and hid me as best as she could in the corner of the elevator...
Good thing she's 5"10!
It was the longest and most embarrassing elevator ride for me...
Moral of this life experience: Kids... NEVER go out late at night in your sleepwear thinking NOBODY would come home this LATE. Save yourself... Ha ha... meh...
22: Crate Myrtles swaying to the pace of the breeze.
23: The heart-to-heart connection with my First Love.
24: The consuming flames of passion I see in the few of my generation.
25: My mission for this Winter.
26: Friends you so dearly love, who do not even know of your existence.
27: Being able to reach out to those in-need by using your past hurts.
28: Leading hand-in-hand that friend to the Ultimate Friend.
29: Tears that tell a million stories.
30: Tears that shed a hundred feelings.
Posted on 01 Oct 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: This is my Father's World [Classical Guitar Instrumental]
いまわなんじですか？ 10:22 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 21/1,000
From October to November will be months of training, and arming myself with love, patience, kindness, a servant's heart, understanding, lowliness, meekness, & MORE LOVE!
All the pieces on the chess board is set.... On my side that is.
He has set all the pieces in place on my side, now He has to set the pieces on the other side.
I am so scared right now, but I know He will prevail.
He holds the whole world in His hands.
He works mighty things even in places nobody ever thinks of.
He wants us to go boldly before Him and talk to Him.
Knock and it shall be opened unto you.
Ask and you shall Recieve.
Please make Your will MY will... And Your desires MY desires.
I want to go to TW this month and deliver to a family the greatest Christmas gift of all times.
Please change their course from Mammoth to Taiwan.
Please guide me in love and kindness to share the true meaning of Christmas with that beautiful soul you have placed as a burden on my heart.
I will walk in the footsteps of Your Son.
No matter what I have to say, I want him to know that he is NOT alone. I am here, I was here months ago.. Barely knowing him I cried for him. Never spoken to him I felt that he has the same hurt I had 4 years ago.
This is Your will. You have shown me how to hurt for him so you could train me to lead him to Jesus.
Thank you for loving him. He is beautiful in your sight. I will do everything I can and leave the rest to you. Save Him Abba!
For he is alone! No one hears his cries! He shouts out in anguish and everybody turns away... A lone he sits... Deep in thought.. "Does anyone really care?"
I do. I do. I do from the first time He put you in my heart.
I love you & I have something to share with you.
My love for you is nothing romantic, it's a better love.
It's the love of sharing the truth. I will guide you to freedom.
Then I will lead you to the ONE who can set you free.
Be free my friend.
17. A heart that hurts for somebody I have not yet met.
18. A heart the yearns for truth to be heard.
19. The freedom of unshackling a friend from sin.
20. The Savior & King born on Christmas day.
21. Waiting on my Abba to deliver the Lost into my hand so I can hold them in my arms and love them with every fiber God has given me.
Posted on 27 Sep 2013 by Rasu
Listening To:: The chirping of birds
いまわなんじですか？ 9:18 [AM]
Journey of Joy: 16/1,000
Even though I do not know you, I feel that you are lonely.
No words can express why I feel this way.
I know you will never read this entry but I want to remind myself of the Mercy of God.
He loves you so much... That he gave this to me.
I hurt for you so much. It feels that you are going through the darkness & loneliness that I once endured.
You are hundreds of miles away from me, but God loves you so much.
It breaks my heart to know that God says, "He's hurting. Just like you did 4 years ago".
I want to tell you that you are NOT alone!
I have been in that darkness... It consumes you, there is no way out... You want your own life to just... cease.
Thump thump....Thump... Th....
That's how my heart felt.
I'm begging for you to fight for your life!
Please! You do not know how much you mean to your Creator!
Please... You don't have to be alone anymore!
I will pull you out of that dark pit. I will hold your hand and lead you to the ultimate friend!... I'm right here...
Please don't feel sad anymore... I think about you everyday and how much God has placed you on my heart. I am praying for you my friend. please don't go.... You're not alone.. I. Am. Here. With. You.
You just don't know it yet.
I have SO much to share with you... You're so far away...
We've only talked once but you know what?
My God is the God of Miracles!
He makes rain shower on the Just and Unjust!
He has mercy and grace on those who know Him, and those who don't know Him.
Hey... I was once in a very dark time in my life.
Yet He told me not to end it, more like He took my hand and dragged me to safety 4 years later.
Beloved Friend... If I had ended my life... Who would think about you daily? Who would want to minister?
I cannot bear the thought of you dying now... I can't.
Please hang on! I'm coming!
Luke 1:37 "For with God, Nothing shall be impossible"
Friend... I'm going to Taiwan this Winter, & by God's mercy, grace, and LOVE for you... I'll meet you there.. Face-To-Face.
I will share His love with you.
I will be that friend you needed.
I will lead you to THE ultimate friend.
Don't feel so sad anymore. You don't know me, but I am here.
I am supporting you.
See you this December! HANG IN THERE!!
HAVE NO FEAR! REBECCA IS HERE!
13. Crying and hurting for those you love, but don't know.
14. A Merciful God who is willing to use the broken for good.
15. God's Indirect way of showing mercy.
16. That God can change the heart... And provide.